I’ve tried to write this post a few times now. Each time I start and then delete my words thinking that no one needs to hear about this. That it’s not a happy post, it has nothing to do with photography, and  some people might not get it. But I’ve included so many posts about Bella on this space and she’s one of the most important things in my life so I’ll share it.

For the past couple weeks we have been in and out of the vet, waiting on test results, been referred to a vet that specializes in oncology, and confirmed that Bella has lymphoma. It has been an emotional roller coaster and while I knew with her old age that something like this would be coming, I wasn’t expecting it to be this soon. The thought of life without her actually brings me to my knees – I can’t even fathom it and now I’m being forced to. I can’t imagine what it will be like not to hear her little snores as she sleeps or see her wiggly bum when we come home. To not have a ball randomly placed by my foot or for her to climb up next to me on the couch and take six spins before finally laying down on my lap. We’re best friends and to say I’m obsessed with her would be an understatement. Her presence is what makes our house a home and without her something will always be missing.

Our hope is that with chemo treatment she will be around for another eight months – and since she’s the craziest, toughest dog who has the biggest case of FOMO, maybe she’ll be around for longer. And as unfortunate as these circumstances are, it’s nice to know what’s coming and to have a timeframe; this way we can take advantage of the time we have and smother her with even more love and attention.

No matter what, we know that she has had an incredible life, she is so loved, and she’s made our lives significantly much better.